Rediscovering the Woman I forgot I was

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I hope you all had a good weekend!

This past week I have spent a lot of my free time knitting, and catching up on watching The Blacklist and Poldark. I finished watching season 5 of The Blacklist and I watched the entire fourth season of Poldark this weekend. Now that I am caught up on the seasons of these shows that are out on DVD, I can go back to rewatching shows. This also means I can go back to spending more time reading in the evenings before bed. I figure that since I am caught up on what I haven’t seen yet, it’s easier to stop watching and put down my knitting and spend more time with my nose in a book. Limiting my screen time, especially before bed is definitely something I found that helps me sleep, but I had gotten away from the last few months when I was so busy with work.

I am also slowly preparing for what I hope to be doing long term with life. Long story short, I am doing my research on where I think I might like to live, and I need to go check out these places. First I need to renew my passport (with the whole RealID thing, and the state issued ID’s from my state aren’t compliant with the federal standards, having a passport is one less stress to security) and save as much money as I can.

As crazy as it may be, I think I finally realized what I want to do with my life, and I finally have a purpose to work for. While I am not ready to spill the beans on what that all looks like, as it will be a work in progress for a while, I will share what I can, when I can.

It feels really good to have something to be working toward again. I felt like I had lost myself, and a part of who I was there for a while. I was once the girl who had big dreams, didn’t take no for an answer when I was told I couldn’t do something. In fact each time I was told no, or I that I couldn’t, that added fuel to the fire to prove to them, and even more so, myself that I could. I have always been the “wild”, “untamed”, outdoorsy, preferring to work with her hands, work her butt off, hard working, pull her weight kind of a girl.

The other day, I was working on the second sock of a pair I have going, and I ran out of yarn, not even half way along the foot.

So I am going to have to order some more, as well as some more of the colors I had ordered along with this yarn, so I will have enough to make those pairs of socks as well. I am having to wait until I get paid this week, to put in my order. In the mean time I have plenty of other projects to work on. This weekend I finished up this sock.

The yarn I am using for this pair, is the yarn I use the most, so I have enough for the second sock as well. I got the second sock cast on today.

I will hopefully have the sock I have to wait on yarn for as well as the sock I just started today done within the next couple of weeks. I would love to have these pairs of socks done, and another pair started before the end of the month.

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First Hike of 2019

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Today, I went for my first hike of the year. While it was rather chilly out (it started out at about 33 degrees Fahrenheit / 1 Celsius), it was a perfect day to go hiking. It warmed up to about 39 (about 3 – 4 degrees Celsius) by the time I was done. I hade worn several layers on top, a long sleeve tee shirt, a sweatshirt and a jacket. By about half way through, I was too warm and had to take my jacket off.

It was a perfect day for a hike. It wasn’t raining, which was good. I didn’t get covered in dirt. Today I saw three deer while I was out on my hike.

In the last two to three months I have realized that I have overall lost sight of the things I love, and what makes me, me. I was reminded of that when I started the job I am working now. There are other young women out there who have inspired me to get back to the determined, no nonsense, take life by the horns, 23 year old who went to New York on her own. While I have gained a bit of maturity since then, and have a better idea of what I want, the adventurous side has slowly disappeared.

I haven’t always been the girl who loves hiking, that began about seven years ago. I have pretty much always been the girl who loved being outside. I loved just being outside, going camping and fishing since I was little. Then the whole “peer pressure” / “societal pressure” / external influences that were telling how I should be, and what I should like really kicked in. That did more harm than good, to say the least.

It was about eight years ago, when I realized that I wasn’t doing why was right for me, and I really needed to stop caring about other people (aka “the haters”) thought, and did what was right for me, even at their disapproval. I still have to shake my head at people who have been around me my whole life, and still don’t get that I am adventurous, and it’s not just a phase that I will grow out of. I have yet to “grow out of” my love of the great outdoors, hiking, camping, adventures, wanting to live a simpler lifestyle, in or near the mountains.

The job I am currently working helped me remember who I am, and what I am capable of, because of the hard work I have had to put in.

Beings that I had today off, I took advantage of a dry day, and went on my hike.

I am definitely am one of those girls who would rather be outside, in hiking boots and jeans. I would totally be happy with a small, but comfortable cabin / home, out a ways, where I could have a garden, do way more modern Homesteading stuff, go on hikes, be outdoors way more, yet still do my blogs, especially my Simple Homemaking blog, as well as this blog.

Happy New Year!!!!

Happy New Year Everyone!

What a year 2018 was. Here’s hoping that 2019 is even better.

This year I hope to read more books and go on more adventures. I also am working toward living a life that is simplified and more meaningful. I have lived in the city for far to long. The life I have been living in the city isn’t too different from the life I lived in a small town. I prefer to cook at home to going out, and I don’t spend a lot of time shopping unless I need something.

So really, my goal for this year is to work on achieving my goals, by spending more time outdoors, renewing my passport, and working on simplifying my life.

After Christmas Changes

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Christmas is over, which means all the Christmas stuff at work is deeply discounted so we can get it sold. We also don’t have to listen to Christmas Music anymore.

This week has been busy in the sense that we have been moving and breaking down fixtures, putting things away, consolidating things, rearranging things, and preparing for our next shop sets that we will be setting soon. Moving and dismantling fixtures is hard work, so I have been really tired this past week. As tiring as it is, I do prefer hard work and being genuinely tired after doing hard work than sitting at a desk all day.

For Christmas I got Series 4 of Poldark, and season 5 of the Blacklist, which the rumor mill has been abuzz about, that these are the penultimate seasons of their respective shows. At least there is one more season of each, as well as the fact that Call the Midwife has been renewed for at least 2 more season, as it has been renewed at least through series 10, and series 8 just started airing.

With the time off I have had, I have started watching season 5 of The Blacklist, and working on socks. I am trying to knit through as much of the sock yarn I have and get more pairs of socks done.

I did finish up a pair I was working on, Christmas evening. I still have two pairs of socks in the works. I had started working with one of the speckled Hawthorne Fingering Hanks I had ordered, as well as started a new pair of socks knit up from Palette Yarn. The Pair I had finished was knit up of Knitpicks Palette Yarn in Mist.

I have quite a bit of fingering weight yarn for socks left, and several pairs of socks knit up. I am working on knitting up what I have, because I prefer my hand knit socks for hiking socks, and I want to get out hiking way more often. I want to have enough that if i am able to go on multi day hiking trips or go on a trip somewhere and go hiking, I don’t have to worry about washing socks until I get home, and will have plenty of clean pairs while I am gone. I also like having a variety of colors. At some point they will wear out, and I don’t want to get to low for a while. They would also be great for if / hopefully when I move somewhere with a real winter. It is frustrating how quickly store bought socks wear out / show signs of wear. I had bought some socks for work on black Friday, and after a couple of wears they are already showing signs of wear. Its not like I bought cheap one either. When I can make a better quality product. It is worth the price of yarn and time to knit them myself to make my own.

Yesterday, my parents and I went out for an early Birthday lunch since my Birthday is in a couple of days. We went to Panera Bread for Lunch.

Between working on finishing up collecting the seasons of Call the Midwife, I am also going to be renewing my Passport. While I don’t need my passport to travel around the US, it makes flying and getting through security easier. I also want to be able to go visit my family in Canada, and one day go to Scotland.

This has basically been the story of my life lately, and when I had seen this mug at work, I knew I needed it. When it went on sale for half off, it made it even better (not to mention my discount on top of that).

While I want to do some traveling, which includes / consists of mostly hiking / camping stuff. I still want to live a generally “simple” life, in a small town or out in the country, where I can have a garden, do a lot of canning / preserving, making homemade meals and homemade food in general, as well as choosing to be less materialistic. Yes, you need a certain amount of “things” to meet your needs, and make a living to provide for your self and your family, but I am over the consumerism and the whole needing the latest and greatest thing to be happy.

For a while I had kind of lost sight of the life I love and want to live, and it has slowly come back to me. I am back to pursuing.

Last Weekend Before Christmas.

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Earlier this week, one of my coworkers and I switched shifts. She covered my shift on Wednesday so I had a day off and I am covering her shift tomorrow.

Today, after work I had some errands to run, including finishing up my Christmas shopping. I had just needed to finish up my brother’s Christmas gift. I had done some shopping at work after I finished up my shift, and then ran to Fred Meyer before coming home, and showering. After that I went and finished up my errands. I ran over to the Powell’s on Hawthorne. I really didn’t want to go Downtown today, fortunately there are two other locations, one being the one on Hawthorne. I also stopped and got a small coffee.

While I was at Powell’s, I picked up 3 books for myself as well. A couple posts ago, I posted about several John Steinbeck books I had ordered. I picked up another John Steinbeck book. I also picked up a copy of Wild. I watched the film several months back, and I really want to read the book.

I am really wanting to spend some more time reading, but that is on hold until work calms down a bit, and I am able to catch up on some sleep.

I love being able to add to my library. I love books, and reading.

I also want to get out and do more hiking, and getting outdoors more. I miss being able to be outside as much as I want.

The past couple of months I have pondering and evaluating my life, the direction its going, and what I should be doing with my life. In many ways my job has helped me realize what i am capable of, and what I want to do.

The Walking Dead

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We are a week away from Christmas. I am definitely feeling like I am just going through the motions and doing all I can do just to get through the day. Last week I worked 5 straight days after a 1 day weekend. This week, I started my work week yesterday, I am on day 2 of 6 straight work days after another 1 day off. The paycheck will be worth it though.

This weekend was also very busy. I had a 3 night event going on Friday night, Saturday night and last night, as well as having had plans Saturday morning.

This year, it doesn’t really feel like Christmas. I have been so busy with work, that it still feels like it should be right around the end of October, not a week until Christmas and 2 weeks until 2019.

Hopefully once the new year starts, I won’t be quite so busy, nor have to get up quite as early.

This is what I signed up for?

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This post is more so for me to look back on than anything else.

This season has been completely different from my experience last season. Different store, different team, different management.

Both seasons have been tough but in very different ways. Last season I was in over my head trying to get the hang of things in a very fast paced environment, having never done anything like it before. This season is more physically demanding as I am working more hours, and some longer days. My schedule changes from day to day and it has been hard to make plans outside of work. I realize that is how retail works this time of year, and I am rolling with those punches.

Yesterday we were asked to come in today, so of course I did. Then while we were working, we were asked if we would stay longer. Steph and I chose to stay. We went and picked up lunch at Panera Bread since there is one within walking distance from work. It was so good. We worked until 3 today. I can honestly say I am tired from an honest days work.

Yesterday the first box of my Barnes and Noble showed up. It contained: “Every Breath” by Nicholas Sparks, as well as “Cannery Row” and “The Grapes of Wrath” both by John Steinbeck. Today, “Of Mice and Men” also by John Steinbeck showed up, as well as my KnitPicks Order.

I am kinda ready to have some free time again so I can work on knitting and reading books. I have so many knitting projects to work on and books to read. I love reading, but haven’t been doing enough of it in recent weeks.

One of the things I have realized is that comparing this season and last season is like comparing Apples and Oranges. The only things that are the same are: the company I work for, my employee ID number, and my job title. Last season was predictable, this season is very go with the flow, get creative and your schedule is gonna change almost weekly if not sometimes daily.

Yes, this is what I signed up for even though I didn’t know it when I signed up for it back in September.

What is a Weekend?

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I am still here, and I do still exist.

I have just gotten to the point where I have hit a wall, and I can’t even anymore.

I feel like my days are pretty much: eat, sleep, work, shower, repeat.

We are in our final big holiday push at work, which is good. With 2 and a half weeks until Christmas, life and work has been full speed ahead.

The past few days after work, I have been trying to watch movies, I don’t always finish them that day. I have also been working on my knitting when I can. Every little bit counts. Yesterday I started watching “The King and I” with Yul Brynner and Deborah Kerr. So far it’s the Rodgers and Hammerstein musical I don’t really care for.

Today, after work I did some shopping at work, as well as a couple of other errands. I got part of my Christmas shopping done. Before work, I also ordered some yarn, and some new books.

Going Hiking in the Rain

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Today was the first week day I have had off this month, where I wasn’t sick or wasn’t a holiday. I was actually able to get out for a bit and enjoy my day off. I have been yearning to go on a hike for about a week. I have missed hiking, so I went for a hike today (albeit a short hike).

I was able to find a break in the rain to fit in most of my hike. The rain started picking up again at the end of my hike.

It felt really good to get out and go for a hike, even though it was a short one since I haven’t been hiking in a few months. This summer was just too hot, and this autumn has been crazy busy.

If next week goes according to schedule (where I have another week day off), I want to get out and go for another hike. I will have to wait and see if that works out and materializes. I am trying to fit in hikes where I can, as my schedule (and therefore my life) has been hectic for the past two months, and only getting busier. Each time I look at my planner and see the days filled in with what is going on and has gone on, it is a bit overwhelming, which is why I take it one day and one week at a time. I just get through what I have to do each day and each week, and try to focus on the small chunks, as to not let it get too overwhelming.

I have also been slowly working on Christmas gifts for my friends and family. I am pretty much done with my mom’s gift, now just to do Everyone else.

I can’t even anymore

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This past week was a busy one. This past Thursday was Thanksgiving for those of us living in the USA.

For anyone living outside of the US and Canada, who don’t celebrate thanksgiving one way or another (as Canadian Thanksgiving is in October), Thanksgiving is a week day set aside where we are to be reminded of what we are thankful for and for families and friends to be together.

These days it seems like the true meaning and spirit of Thanksgiving has been lost on many fronts when retail stores are open on thanksgiving, because they want your money.

I do work in retail. For now the company I work for still closes for Thanksgiving and Christmas, so I had Thanksgiving off. I did have to work on Black Friday. Being stock crew, we got to start work early, since we had a shop set to reset. I got off two hours after we opened.

I had done a little online shopping before I had left for work. 2 am (Pacific Time) is an amazing time to go Black Friday shopping online. It ensures your order processes, and that you get what you want, and the website won’t crash due to traffic volume.

For Thanksgiving, I spent time with my family and had helped my mom make Thanksgiving Dinner.

This weekend, I have been trying to relax as much as possible, as well as working on one of the knitting projects I have going.

Through this busy season of life, I have been trying to make time for having a life and things I enjoy, on the weekends and on my days off. It isn’t always easy, but during this season of hustle and bustle it needs to be done.