Taking on Life at Full Speed

Learning from the past to make a brighter future

A year of changes  — December 28, 2015

A year of changes 

When my Mom was asking me what I wanted for my Birthday my mind went blank. Of course there are things I would like, but few that I would actually ask for. 

As I was thinking about what to “ask for” for my birthday I was taken back to my childhood, to when I had a list 3/4 of a page long. 

Now that I am older my wants are more expensive and things I expect to purchase for myself when I can afford them. 

It has been interesting to look back over this past year and see how things have changed. I have been holding down a full time job, paying bills. Things I am passionate about, like reading books and knitting have taken a back seat to life. This year I have fit in more adventures in what little free time I have had. This next year I want to balance the free time I have to spend more time knitting and reading books. 

The past couple of months I have really been considering my purpose, my mission and my call in life. While it has changed a bit from what it was five and a half years ago, in many ways it hasn’t. If the direction I am seeing right now, continues and is the Lord’s will for my life, the past decade has not been a waste at all, but rather an eye opener to needs and preparation for serving the call and the need. 

Had my life gone according to my plan for my life when I was 16, I would gotten married at 22 or 23 after I graduated from college and had become a teacher and would likely have had a couple kids of my own by now. I wouldn’t have gone to New York on my own when I was 23. I likely would be passionate about the things I am passionate about. 

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It’s Christmas — December 25, 2015

It’s Christmas

Merry Christmas!

I have been spending a nice quiet Christmas knitting and watching Downton Abbey. 

Yesterday I had run errands. Beings we had had our family Christmas this past Sunday, I was able to go Christmas shopping for myself. 

Earlier in the month I had ordered the illustrated Cooks Book of Ingredients for myself. I had received a gift card for REI so I went to REI yesterday and picked up an REI Flash 58 pack, as well as a Steripen and a water bottle. 

I had also gone to Joann Fabric and Craft, where I had bought a couple of Christmas Pot Holders, some ribbon and two skeins of Fishermen’s Wool in Natural. I am planning on using it to make a wrap. 

I have also been thinking about my future and where I want to move. I still am torn between Alaska and Colorado. Both places have great outdoor activities and history. I would love to learn how to snowboard and go hiking, among other things like putting all my hand knit winter accessories to good use on a more regular basis. 

Where life takes You.  — December 23, 2015

Where life takes You. 

Hi Everyone!

Merry Christmas! It is hard to believe that Christmas is here already. This past month has flown by. With Thanksgiving, then the tree lighting, a wedding the next day and a week of training starting the Monday after the Saturday wedding. Then I was involved helping with Christmas on the Campgrounds starting the evening of my last day of training. It took me a week to get back to normal work wise and that flew by, we then had our family Christmas this past Sunday before going to the concert at church. This week has been a short work with because of Christmas and having time off to take or I lose it. Next week is my birthday week so I am using up my PTO next week before going back to my normal 4 ten hour days. 

All this busyness has helped me keep my mind off my “sister” and “Niece’s” situation and the fact that the court system is playing ping pong with that little girl, and tearing her away from the only real family she knows just for the sake of giving her bio mom “another chance”. After having had baby girl’s two older half brothers taken away and successfully adopted by baby girl’s foster parents, their bio mom should not have even had a second chance with little miss after she (little miss) was taken away the first time. I love my friends dearly and hate to see them hurting but they are adults, who can handle it. Why this whole situation bothers me so much is because it really is not in Baby Girl’s best interest to take her away from her family where she is safe, loved, well cared for and with her two biological siblings. My friends have been her parents for 2/3 of her life, and in the same home as her two half siblings, who were adopted by my friends. This whole situation of her going back to her bio mom who is a stranger to her, is not right. The system has failed this little girl in so many ways, so many times. I love my friends kids (little miss and her brothers) like they were my own niece and nephews, as that is how I see them. Little Miss has been on my heart a lot this past month. 

We did Christmas as a family this past Sunday beings my brother is spending Christmas and New Years with his girlfriend and her family. 

Tonight it hit me that it has been 10 years since I was a Senior in high school, anticipating going off to college and what I would be doing afterward, and where I would be living. I had no idea how different my life would be from that image I had as a 17 year old who was a week away from turning 18. I never would have imagined that I would move back to my parents house after college. I also never would have thought I would make it to Hawaii at 19, or go to New York to be a nanny on my own at 23. I never would have imagined being an engineering assistant, or wanting to move to Alaska. I never would have imagined I would love The History of the American West or Women’s History as much as I do. 

I am not the same girl I was 10 years ago, or even 1 year ago. 

I used to think that I’d have been married by now, and have had my first kid by now. None of that has happened. There have been times when I had wished it would have, I have come to be ok with who I am, and being free to pursue my own passion, and be who I am supposed to be. Had I gotten married at 22, I would not be the same woman I am today. In another 10 years I won’t be who I am right now. 

— December 18, 2015

Hey Everyone!

The past couple weeks have been insanely busy. Last week I had training. This week was back to normal, and it flew by. Today was a busy day, I finished up my Christmas shopping, went to Bob’s Red Mill, then went to Fred Meyer, Trader Joe’s, new seasons and Safeway before getting Thai food to go. After I got home and had dinner I put in a Scentsy Order as I am trying to round out my stash of Scentsy wax bars. I have a pretty good stash started, but with job hunting and wanting to move, I am trying to have a stash stocked up so when that move happens I will have Scentsy for a while. I want to be able to make my new place smell like home from the time I move in. 

Yesterday I had got thinking about all the adventures I have been on this year. From hikes in the city to going to Seattle for a night and going up to the top of Mt Saint Helens. Going back through my pictures I was surprised at how many adventures I had actually gone on this year. Like seriously, the travel bug bit me hard when I went to Hawaii 8.5 years ago. I have been wanting to travel and explore ever since.

From the time I was young (like early teens) I had felt the pressure to get married and settled down. As I have gotten older I have been bucking that pressure as getting married isn’t in my foreseeable future, I came to the conclusion that until I meet the kind of guy who loves traveling and adventures as much as I do, I am not going to settle for just any guy, just because society and the culture I was raised around says I should have been married by 23. My 23rd birthday has come and went all before I had gone to New York on my own. In the years since I have realized that there is more to life than marrying young, and having babies right away, there is a whole big world out there to explore and learn from. 

In 2016 I am looking forward to some hopefully good changes as well as many more adventures. 

Something to work toward — December 14, 2015

Something to work toward

Hey Everyone!

I have been meaning to write this post for a few days now, but have been so busy and tired that I haven’t done so yet. 

This past week I was in training, which took a lot out of me, and I was wiped out at the end. This past weekend was also pretty busy. 

This past weekend I helped to make some of the hot chocolate as well as help serve it and the cookies at the 3 evening Christmas event at my parents church. That had kept me busy this weekend as well. Despite the constant rain there was a decent turn out. Each year it has grown into a bigger and better production. This was its 7th year of Christmas on the Campgrounds. It is hard to believe that it has been that long. 

I know I have likely mentioned in the past that I am wanting to move and live somewhere new, while Alaska is at the top of my list, I have not completely said no to living somewhere else. Though I am waiting a few more months until it is not the dead of winter and I have more of the financial end squared away, but Alaska is looking like a real contender. I am praying about it, and leaving it in God’s hands. It would be an amazing experience if it works out. If this isn’t the first blog post of mine that you have read, you know I like adventures. 

Right now everything is still in the whole wait and see, don’t talk much about it outside a close group of people just in case it doesn’t work out. 

Anyone who knows me well, knows that moving to Alaska has been a dream of mine for years. Once I came back to reality and realized that unless I married a man with British nationality, and lived in Scotland, that moving to Scotland was not likely to happen, whereas Alaska is still part of the US but is pretty much like its own country. Though they at least use the same currency, and the same electrical outlets and voltage we do “down south”. 

Needing a job is the biggest challenge, though I may have solved that problem. That is part of what I am praying about, is that if it is the Lord’s Will I will get a job before I move, and have a bit more work experience on my resume and money in the bank account before I make a move that big. This is a whole lot more serious than going to New York to be a Nanny. This would be a I am moving and I don’t know when I will be back, and may never move back south kind of a move. 

Something to work toward —

Something to work toward

Hey Everyone!

I have been meaning to write this post for a few days now, but have been so busy and tired that I haven’t done so yet. 

This past week I was in training, which took a lot out of me, and I was wiped out at the end. This past weekend was also pretty busy. 

This past weekend I helped to make some of the hot chocolate as well as help serve it and the cookies at the 3 evening Christmas event at my parents church. That had kept me busy this weekend as well. Despite the constant rain there was a decent turn out. Each year it has grown into a bigger and better production. This was its 7th year of Christmas on the Campgrounds. It is hard to believe that it has been that long. 

I know I have likely mentioned in the past that I am wanting to move and live somewhere new, while Alaska is at the top of my list, I have not completely said no to living somewhere else. Though I am waiting a few more months until it is not the dead of winter and I have more of the financial end squared away, but Alaska is looking like a real contender. I am praying about it, and leaving it in God’s hands. It would be an amazing experience if it works out. If this isn’t the first blog post of mine that you have read, you know I like adventures. 

Right now everything is still in the whole wait and see, don’t talk much about it outside a close group of people just in case it doesn’t work out. 

Anyone who knows me well, knows that moving to Alaska has been a dream of mine for years. Once I came back to reality and realized that unless I married a man with British nationality, and lived in Scotland, that moving to Scotland was not likely to happen, whereas Alaska is still part of the US but is pretty much like its own country. Though they at least use the same currency, and the same electrical outlets and voltage we do “down south”. 

Needing a job is the biggest challenge, though I may have solved that problem. That is part of what I am praying about, is that if it is the Lord’s Will I will get a job before I move. 

Something to work toward —

Something to work toward

Hey Everyone!

I have been meaning to write this post for a few days now, but have been so busy and tired that I haven’t done so yet. 

This past week I was in training, which took a lot out of me, and I was wiped out at the end. This past weekend was also pretty busy. 

This past weekend I helped to make some of the hot chocolate as well as help serve it and the cookies at the 3 evening Christmas event at my parents church. That had kept me busy this weekend as well. Despite the constant rain there was a decent turn out. Each year it has grown into a bigger and better production. This was its 7th year of Christmas on the Campgrounds. It is hard to believe that it has been that long. 

I know I have likely mentioned in the past that I am wanting to move and live somewhere new, while Alaska is at the top of my list, I have not completely said no to living somewhere else. Though I am waiting a few more months until it is not the dead of winter and I have more of the financial end squared away, but Alaska is looking like a real contender. I am praying about it, and leaving it in God’s hands. It would be an amazing experience if it works out. If this isn’t the first blog post of mine that you have read, you know I like adventures. 

Right now everything is still in the whole wait and see, don’t talk much about it outside a close group of people just in case it doesn’t work out. 

Anyone who knows me well, knows that moving to Alaska has been a dream of mine for years. Once I came back to reality and realized that unless I married a man with British nationality, and lived in Scotland, that moving to Scotland was not likely to happen, whereas Alaska is still part of the US but is pretty much like its own country. Though they at least use the same currency, and the same electrical outlets and voltage we do “down south”. 

Hey Everyone!

I have been meaning to write this post for a few days now, but have been so busy and tired that I haven’t done so yet. 

This past week I was in training, which took a lot out of me, and I was wiped out at the end. This past weekend was also pretty busy. 

This past weekend I helped to make some of the hot chocolate as well as help serve it and the cookies at the 3 evening Christmas event at my parents church. That had kept me busy this weekend as well. Despite the constant rain there was a decent turn out. Each year it has grown into a bigger and better production. This was its 7th year of Christmas on the Campgrounds. It is hard to believe that it has been that long. 

I know I have likely mentioned in the past that I am wanting to move and live somewhere new, while Alaska is at the top of my list, I have not completely said no to living somewhere else. Though I am waiting a few more months until it is not the dead of winter and I have more of the financial end squared away, but Alaska is looking like a real contender. I am praying about it, and leaving it in God’s hands. It would be an amazing experience if it works out. If this isn’t the first blog post of mine that you have read, you know I like adventures. 

Right now everything is still in the whole wait and see, don’t talk much about it outside a close group of people just in case it doesn’t work out. 

Anyone who knows me well, knows that moving to Alaska has been a dream of mine for years. Once I came back to reality and realized that unless I married a man with British nationality, and lived in Scotland, that moving to Scotland was not likely to happen, whereas Alaska is still part of the US but is pretty much like its own country. Though they at least use the same currency, and the same electrical outlets and voltage we do “down south”. 

“Justice” doesn’t favor the children.  — December 6, 2015

“Justice” doesn’t favor the children. 

Hey Everyone!

I am not one to take a vocal stance publicly on many hot issues, but for once I feel the need to share my thoughts on some injustices I see in the world, primarily in the behalf of children. 

I look around and see that the court systems in this country really are doing the children of this country a disservice, and rarely have their best interests at heart. 

Whether it is in cases of divorce where the children are the monkey in the middle being pulled multiple directions, and having to be pawns in their parents problems. I also see it when children are removed from their parents and placed in group homes or foster homes and either get bounced around between homes or keep being placed back into minimally adequate homes with their biological parents who are putting them in harms way, when their biological parents have already had at least one other child removed from them, and had their parental rights terminated for those older siblings, and those sibling a have since been adopted into a good home. 

The corrupt nature of our judicial system that puts neglectful and abusive parents desires ahead of what is actually in the best interest for the child is appalling. 

I am currently watching two of my friends have to transition their 32 month old foster daughter back into the care of her biological mother for the second time I her short life. My friends have been her parents for 22 out of the 32 months she has been alive. They also adopted her two older half brothers a few years ago. These three children have the same biological mother. Little Miss was taken off the foster care track and put on the adoption track several months ago, and for some ungodly reason, some idiot thought it would be a great idea to give her biological mother a third chance with her third child, after having parental rights terminated with two other children who little miss is currently being raised with. I find it appalling, and it angers me to see this precious little girl being taken away from the only parents she knows, to live with someone she doesn’t know. On top of that little miss’s had already had her parent rights terminated with her, and is now being giving a third chance? This is so wrong. Like I already said, my friends had successfully adopted Little Miss’s older half brothers, who share the same biological mother as Little Miss, so the fact that their mother was given a second chance with little miss in the first place made no sense. This third chance, after already having had her parental rights terminated (like come on, really? She has also lost her two sons) why should she get another chance. But this reall should not be about her, it is about the fact that Little Miss is being taken away from the only family she knows, with parents, her biological brothers, grandparents, aunts, uncles, an entire church family that loves her, and that she has known her entire short little life. Her best interest would be to be left where she is, with her biological siblings, in a good home, that was on track to adopt her and make her legal theirs. 

I have seen and heard more stories that I would like to, that similar to this story. Little Miss’s story is just one of many, and she is a statistic. She is more than just a statistic, she is a child who deserves better than to be pawn in the corrupt judicial systems game.  

Tree Lighting and Wedding —

Tree Lighting and Wedding

Hey Everyone!

It has been a busy weekend. Friday I ran some errands and then headed out of town. I stopped in Salem for food, before going the rest of the way out to Polk County for the tree lighting where I went to College. 

This is the first tree lighting I have made it to since 2007, 8 years is a long time. I went freshman and sophomore years, I don’t remember why I didn’t go junior year, Senior year I was in doing my final presentation for my history of the Early American West class, so I couldn’t go. Beings that they moved it from Wednesday to Friday night, made it possible to go this year, since I have Friday’s off. 

 The tree that is lit up is now 128 years old (it was planted in 1887), and it is a giant sequoia. From the right spots you can see it from miles away. 

Yesterday I had attended a wedding at church. I knew both the bride and groom. The groom is the younger brother of a friend of mine, and the bride had been my helper a couple years when I had been a group leader at doing Vacation Bible School. She was best helper anyone could ask for. With her I didn’t have to worry about any of the kids getting separated from the group, and if she said we had everyone, we had everyone. 

They had a really nice, simple, Christmasy wedding. Beings that the church was already being decorated for Christmas, it fit in perfectly. 

You can see some of the decorations below. 

 

My brother had come by before the wedding, so he took me with him over to the church for the wedding. Beings that he helped get the sanctuary ready for church today, which gave me time to get the pictures.