Month: February 2016

Being a young adult in the city

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It has been a busy weekend and I am only about 2/3 of the way through it. 

Yesterday and today I have been running errands, going to a concert, running more errands, seeing the city I grew up in with a different perspective, and doing some reorganization of yarn, and other things I have sitting around, so I can work on decluttering a bit until I need some of this stuff. 

Today in addition to what I already mentioned I also edited my vlog from yesterday, and it is working on uploading, and I have been writing blog posts.

Last nights concert was amazing. My friend and I had gone to the Rend Collective concert. It was a concert, and it was also a worship service, which was pretty amazing. I hadn’t been to that kind of worship service before. 

Rend Collective has quickly become my favorite Christian Group followed closely by I am They. I love their style, and their message. Their message has really been inspiring to me lately, as it also embodies a lot of who I am. Part of that is that being a church is more than where you attend church and who you attend with, but as a body of believers, we as Christians are the church. Last night my friend and I were where we only knew each other, but didn’t really feel out of place. 

For the past decade pretty much, I hadven’t been a fan of city life, though in the past could of months my perspective has been changing towards it as I have discovered more to it than just the little 3 mile radius I grew up with. The job I had at the knitting studio in NE had definitely forced me out of the little world I had been in, in a good way. The jobs I had had previously to that were primarily out in the West Side, where is still felt insulted from the inner city. Portland is fairly eclectic and culturally diverse. While it is no San Francisco, it is an interesting place. While I haven’t actually watched Portlandia, from what I have heard from the other Portland Natives who have seen it, it is pretty spot on for Portland Culture. 

Today I had gone to my favorite bakery for a treat and a couple of local yarn stores for some yarn. It was interesting experience. The first one I went to was my normal go to store for yarn for myself, the second I was not expecting it to be as it was. The yarn was on bulk cones and you picked what you wanted and how much (in oz) and then had it wound off onto another cone. I had gotten a pale purple and a grey put together so it would be more of a heathered yarn. This store kind of reminded me of the studio where I used to work, and hiw sometimes we would put two different colors of the #72  1 ply – cashmere together rather than making the two ply out of the same color. I am super excited to work with it and see how it turns out. 



Being in the city is foreign

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As I was driving to work this evening it hit me hard, that even though I have lived in the city most of my life, city life is still extremely foreign to me. I really feel like I don’t belong in the city. I miss being 30 minutes from the closest freeway (interstate). I felt more at home and that life was normal when I drove 2 lane country roads daily, and only went into the big city (with a population between 150,000 and 175,000) about once every three months. Living in a town where going to the largest town in the county (with about 15,000 people) was 8 miles away and it took about 20 – 25 minutes to get into town. 

There have been many times in the past decade where the city was still completely foreign even though I was raised in it. 

Yesterday I had been missing the second apartment I had had in college, where I had a decent sized bedroom and loved the configuration of my closet. How my room was set up I had full access to my closet and half of it was divided into an upper and lower sections so I had 1/3 more space than my current closet. I loved it. 

Working A Lot: an update

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As with anything in life, not everything goes according to plan. I was supposed to work this weekend, but then at the last minute things changed and someone else was working the roadshow this weekend. I still have to go to help break stuff down tomorrow. Cons: not as much additional income, Pros: not having to be on my feet for an additional 16 hours, I could have my weekend back, and I got to see my best friend today, which I wasn’t expecting. Beings that the road show isn’t my primary source of income I am not as bummed as I otherwise would have if my hours had been cut.

That being said I still am getting a few extra hours, and got my weekend back. I was able to get some extrA sleep this morning after working 51 hours this past week. 

I also went to the mall twice today, the first time was to pick up a wedding shower gift for a shower I went to this afternoon. I also went back as did a little bit of clothes shopping for this spring and summer. I found the cutest pair of wedges, that will go great with jeans and one of the dresses I have. I also found a couple of pairs of cute sandles for this summer. 

Working a lot

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This week has flown by, and it isn’t even over yet. I have been busy working, I not only have had my regular job, but I have also been working a few roadshow shifts. I have already completed two out of my four shifts, I still have tomorrow (Saturday) and Sunday to work. By the time Thursday ends I will have worked roughly 110 hours in 11 days, without a day off. It’s insane, I know, but for two weeks I can handle it, besides I have plans next Friday to look forward to 😀.

As much as working 8 – 11.5 hours in a day is hard, and leaves no real free time, getting an extra week’s worth of pay is totally worth it. 

Working hard to be able to pay down my bills, and work toward building a better future for myself. 

There have been several things on my mind and that I have been working toward making happen, like finding a job and hopefully moving to a new state. Then eventually get married and have a family. 

Still trying to figure things out

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I can’t seem to get this post written, even though I feel like it should be written.

I have had a lot on my mind today. A lot of has to do with my future and career plans and goals. 

After I had realized that being a teacher wasn’t for me, I became kind of lost in terms of career goals and aspirations. I finished college and got a degree in Social Science with a focus in American History and I minored in literature. It will be 6 years in June that I graduated with my bachelors degree and I still feel as lost as I did then, and I have no idea what career I should have or what I should be working toward. 

Some people know what they want to do as a career from the time they are young, others take some time and figure it out through working several jobs in different industries. 

I know I have said it before that I want to read more books as I still have 7 Outlander books to read, as well as the newest Nicolas Sparks book, and the Game of Thrones books. I was a literature minor in College, because I love reading. Since high school I have started collecting books. I have a whole uhaul electronics box full of books and then I have been buying more since then. 

The six things that are constantly  on my mind are Gluten Free/Dairy Free food, knitting, books, blogging, a home of my own/homemaking and adventures not exactly in that order. I would love to find a way to get paid to do all the above as well as help young women who are or have gone through what I have been through. 

Role Model?!?!?!

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It wasn’t until a couple of years ago that I realized how much of a role model I am to others. 

There have been many times when I have shunned the idea that I am any kind of role model to those around me, then one of the girls who I have realized looks up to me, is the sweetest thing I have seen, and it reminds that no matter how much I try to avoid it, i remember that these girls are worth the work required of me to be a role model. I love these girls, like they are my little sisters or younger cousins. 

That has influenced some of my choices and why I do what I do. Being a part of their lives, and being a part of the village that helps shape the women they will become is worth making the hard choices and choosing not to do certain things that may or may not have a negative impact on the lives of those around me. I don’t live my life for others, but I am conscience of the impression I am making. 

I have also considered how my actions and my choices could have an impact on my career. Making the best of the jobs I have, even if where I am at isn’t going to be a career, each job is a stepping stone and experience under my belt. 

When I come up, I want people to speak highly of me without reservation. 

Living in the 21st Century

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It is Monday, so here is my first post in my what’s on my mind Monday Series.

The past few weeks I have been thinking a lot about who I am today, and how I got to where I am today in terms of the life experiences I have had and what I believe.

I grew up in a fairly conservative environment, yet I went to public school, grew up with my mom having had a career her whole adult life, and having grown up with two grandmothers who were both strong women, yet were amazing Christian women at the exact same time. One of whom had to be a single mother and finish raising two girls on her own after my grandpa got sick and then passed away. My grandma held full time jobs, supported her children, kept house, and was active in her church. The other grandmother was a pastors wife, who was good at what she did and at least at one point in time had a job outside the home in addition to her responsibilities as a Pastors Wife. She was also a strong woman, personality wise, from what I remember she and my grandpa were well matched and each was what the other needed to bring to do what they were called to do.

Even though I saw my grandmothers and mother hold down jobs, I also saw them do the normal, cook/keep house and raise kids like they were “supposed” to do. Women are capable of being wives and mothers even if they need to work outside of the home.

So growing up I saw that, and saw that women could think for themselves, and could make their own decisions (which were good decisions), and they were completely able to take care of their own business out in the real world. For me, between how I was raised and where society was and is, there was never any doubts that I could do anything I set my mind to. I got my drivers permit at 15, my license just before my 17th birthday, I went to college, had my own apartment and had paid bills all before I turned 21. I graduated from college after 4 years, at the age of 22, I then went to New York on my own at the age of 23.  I have a full time job, I pay my bills, I can balance my checkbook, I have travelled on my own, all in my 20’s and without being married. Marriage may or may not happen for me, but if it doesn’t I know I can take care of myself and am not reliant on my father/brother/other male relative to support me like I would have been years ago, or would be in other countries. I still believe much of what I was taught growing up, as far as being a Christian and all of that. I have also seen how real life can be and that things happen, like getting married later in life if one gets married at all, or a spouse can die and you don’t get remarried. Being on your own as a woman isn’t necessarily a bad thing, even as a woman, it give you the time and opportunity to grow closer to God, and the other women (Married or unmarried) in your life and to learn from them.

Even with how far we, and by we I am meaning women have come in the past 100 years in the country, it still isn’t without its flaws, and the inequities are still ever present. Like the fact that we are still only earning $.79 to every $1 a man makes, of how here in the US we don’t have a paid maternity leave system for women in our own country, women are lucky if they work for a company that offers any paid maternity leave let alone 3 – 6 months of paid maternity leave. We (the United States) is the only westernized country that doesn’t have some form of national laws mandating paid maternity leave.

Then there are the issues of Slut Shaming and Victim Shaming. Both are poor excuses if even that for men to try to get out of taking responsibility for their actions and make women responsible for the stupid, idiotic, irresponsible behavior.  I believe in modesty, but I also believe some take it to the extreme. Modesty goes both ways. While it seems that females are more the focus when it comes to modesty, but guys can be immodest as well. Responsibility also falls on both sides. I also be live that slut shaming and victim shaming is a scape goat and an excuse for guys to be jerks and not take responsibility for their actions, like why should they when they can just blame their irresponsibility on a girl for how she dresses or how she is acting. Those guys aren’t men, they don’t deserve respect because they haven’t earned it. Degrading and demeaning women for how they dress is also wrong, even if you never lay a hand on them, how you talk about them, how you talk to them, and how you treat them/ act toward them is also your own responsibility, not theirs. Guys, if you want our respect don’t blame the girl for you raping her or beating her up because you are a jerk who thinks you are all that because you can cause harm to a woman or a child. Do I think women should dress modestly? Yes, but that doesn’t mean you have to look, think or act like the Duggar girls, there is a middle ground. Guys, you can learn some self control, and expect more from yourselves and take responsibility for your own actions and choices. Respect and trust is earned, not demanded. 

That’s all I got for tonight all. Thanks for reading, and check back next week for another what’s on my mind post.

What’s on my Mind Monday

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With the success of the post about justice not favoring our children, I am going to try out a new series, and see how it goes. The series is going to be about what’s on my mind, whether it is an issue or an event that has taken place recently. I want to keep it as clean, civil and “family friendly” as possible, so I am going to stay away from super hot button issues, and address other issues that have come up in my life, and share how I see it. I will allow comments, even those who disagree with me, as long as you can do the following: civilly disagree without name calling, berating and tearing those who disagree with you as though they are stupid. 

As long as there is civil conversation I will allow comments. 

“Justice” Update

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It still amazes me, almost two months later how much attention and track backs my post Justice Doesn’t Favor the Children has gotten in that amount of time. Like seriously, I had written it mainly as a way to vent my frustration when all I could do was stand by and watch as Little Miss is treated like nothing more than a rag doll by the judicial system.

a little update on Little Miss, she was supposed to have been transitioned back to her bio Mom by the new year, now a little over a month after the new year and my friends are still her foster parents, and will be for a while longer. I would be surprised if they still have her on her upcoming birthday (which is still a couple months away).

I had gone back and looked over that post, and I still feel the way I did when I wrote it. Seeing children tossed about in a cold, harsh, cruel system that rarely seems to put their needs and what is in their best interest ahead of their parents agendas.

It also breaks my heart beyond words, as well as makes me fighting mad to know that there are people out there that abuse children, especially their own children. No child should ever suffer from child abuse, especially at the hands of their parents. I have heard about some of the abuse that has been inflicted on some children at the hands of their parents and it makes me angry. I have also heard about the trauma left behind on these children’s lives from the abuse and neglect they suffered from an extremely young age. I am outraged by it.

When it comes to divorce and Coparenting, I have my thoughts on that, I would like to see fathers be able to have a relationship with their children (unless they legitimately did something that would cause an unsafe situation for the child to be in) but that is ultimately up to each couple.

Historical Ficton

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It is hard to believe that it is Thursday already. Then again I am not surprised, with being exhausted.

This past week I finished up watching season six of Downton Abbey. After the last episode I was kinda sad to see it end. Though I was happy that Edith got her “happy ending”. This week I have been watching J*A*G while I work, I used to watch the later seasons during me teen years when it was still on the air. I am still o the second season so the episodes are new to me. I also had bought Mercy Street which is set during the civil war, and takes place primarily in a make shift Union hospital in the south. While I am fully aware that both Downton Abbey and Mercy Street are historical fiction but the fact that both are put out by PBS, I would expect that there is more historical accuracy about the era than in other period dramas.

I love period dramas, especially those set here in the United States (with Downton Abbey being the exception to that rule). I love everything from the sets, to the costumes, to the lighting (it is definitely darker and not as bright) and the music. All these elements and more really set the tone for the work, and there are ways (which Mercy Street has done), to really bring the audience into the era of the Civil War, and while you know it was filmed in 2015, it doesn’t have that 2015/2016 feel to it. While it is of a better video quality than the old VHS tapes of Five Mile Creek, authentically they feel about the same (and both are set in the same era).

I am fascinated by the historical shows that have actual roots in history. Here a few months ago I came across the quest series. The producers had done 4 different reality shows in Canada where they set out to recreate 4 different scenarios to be as historically accurate as possible and essentially sent people “back in time” to live as their ancestors had during each period. Two couples had spent a year living on the frontier.

While I am working I either have a tv show going in the background or music. In college I got used to listening to music while I studied so that carried over to life after college.