Month: August 2018

All the Things…..

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This week has been a bit more low key. It has also been cooler. Fall is coming!!!! I am so excited for fall! I am so ready for cooler weather.

I have been working on a couple pairs of socks, and I got the first sock of each pair complete.

I have also been doing some cooking and baking earlier this week. I made chicken with rice as well as easy artisan bread.

Today, was a cooler day, and I was able to go out and go for a hike.

I am still doing “The Adventures of Winnie the Pooh and Tigger”, on my adventures. I am definitely wanting to get out and see new places. I have had these two since I went to New York, so I have been taking them along on adventures since then. I am wanting to go on more adventures and take them along. These two even have their own Facebook Page.

I can feel the soreness starting, it will be worse tomorrow I can tell you that already, but it was worth it.

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When you Realize that no matter how hard you try, you aren’t where you Belong.

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I mentioned it in my last post, that I had an interview on Tuesday, and that I would hear back either way. Well, it’s Friday, and normal business hours have come and gone, yet I still haven’t heard anything. I knew walking out I wouldn’t hear anything. Of all the jobs I have interviewed for, all but one of the job offers I have had came in person, at the end of an interview. So of the 57 Interviews I have had in the past eight years, of the ones where the job offer wasn’t extended at the interview, only one has ever called me. 1 out of roughly 50 where I walked out without a job offer in hand, extended an offer.

In college I didn’t want to move back to the city, but I had to, because we were still in the midst of the recession and there isn’t much in the way of industry to find a job that you can live on in a small town like that, so I (not so willingly) came back to my parents house, in the city.

Over the past eight years, I have pages upon pages worth of documenting all the resumes I have submitted, and applications I have filled out. Out of the several hundred applications and resumes I have submitted, and 57 interviews I have gone on, the best job I have had was a temp job lasting about two and a half years. It also didn’t pay a living wage.

I am the kind of person who likes to work hard, I don’t need much, I just want to live a simple life where I can make ends meet and not hate what I am doing or where I am at.

The biggest reasons I didn’t want to move to the city, and I want to move still, is that I loved having my own space while I was in college. While I am trying to make the best of it while I am here, I am not a fan of the city life, all the people, the traffic, always being on the go, yet every activity costs money to go do, housing has gotten so expensive, yards are getting smaller.

I have been trying to find a way out, but have yet to find it.

I realize this post is rather pessimistic, that is where I am at right now. I am just trying to understand and figure out what I am supposed to be doing with my life, since getting paid to do what I love doing (Homemaking and Knitting) seems pretty unrealistic at this point in time.

I usually try to keep my post more up beat and positive. Today I am just frustrated and a bit pessimistic. I was told at the interview I had Tuesday that either way I would hear back by today at the latest. It’s now almost 7:00 pm and I have heard absolutely nothing. No phone call or email. There used to be a time when someone’s word meant something. Anymore, I learned the hard way, that you really cannot take anyone at their word. Anyone who you can take at their word is very rare.

The Night the Moon Turned Orange

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Yesterday I went out because I had another interview yesterday afternoon. I had gotten to the mall early so I had hung out at the bookstore until it was time for my interview.

I haven’t heard anything back from the interview I had two weeks ago, so it is more than safe to assume that I did not get selected to fill the position. I am not a fan of the current way things are done, when companies hang candidates out to dry when they aren’t the ones to be hired. I have come away from far to many interviews and not hearing anything back. My experience has taught me that if they want you they will hire you on the spot or within the week.

This summer has been so hot and smoky. We unfortunately set a new record for the number of 90+ degree days. We have had 30 days with highs at or above 90 degrees.

Our air quality has been pretty bad, we have had quite a few days with air quality in the unhealthy range. There are areas still worse off than we are here. The moon has been so orange from the smoke the past few nights.

Though from the looks of things it looks we have turned the corner on summer and will be starting into fall. The forecast is showing things cooling off significantly, which I am thankful for. I am so ready for fall to be here. The days are definitely getting shorter. Sunrise is quickly approaching 6:30 am, and sunset will soon (like in the next week) be before 8:00 pm.

That being said I am hoping to get a few more raspberries this summer, so I can get at least one more batch of jam this season.

I am looking forward to tea, sweater and handknits weather. I am also wanting to get a few more hikes in while the weather is perfect! I have several pairs of hand knit socks I haven’t worn yet, that I want to get “broken in” before winter gets here.

Just Needing to Go!!!

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Despite still struggling with bad allergies, I needed to get out of the house and get out and about.

I got a coffee from Black Rock to start my day off. I got a soy hazelnut latte.

I also needed to pick up a couple items at Fred Meyer. I saw this super cute reusable bag, so I picked it up as well.

It totally makes me want to go shopping at farmers markets, for fresh local produce, to whip up into something tasty.

While I was out, i went up to one of the neighborhoods that I have fallen in love with here in the city. For someone who isn’t a fan of being in the city, finding a neighborhood I like was a hard task and a huge undertaking. It is over in Northeast Portland. It is one of those neighborhoods that is still a decent neighborhood and is also a traditionally working class neighborhood, where people like my grandparents would have raised my parents.

I came across this Catholic Church while I was out exploring.

Today I was able to pick two pints of raspberries and almost a pint of tomatoes.

There are starting to be early signs of fall. We are finally done with the long stretches of highs in the 90’s, that doesn’t cool off much at night. The days are getting shorter and it is definitely obvious that we are getting less daylight.

I am so ready for fall to be here.

Another Unhealthy Air Quality Day.

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I had an interview last Thursday, and as of today, a week later I haven’t heard anything back. I have still have been applying for other jobs. At this point I don’t expect to hear back from the interview I had. The final decision was to have been made on Monday. While I am not holding my breath that I got it, I am also giving it until the end of the work day Friday to totally write it off.

The air quality here has been pretty bad the past couple of days, to the point where I have physically felt poorly. I can’t imagine how bad it is in places like Redding, Medford, the area east of the cascades, as well as up where my aunt and uncle live in Northern BC. The fires up there have gotten so bad in the past couple of days that my aunt and uncle have had to evacuate across the lake.

I managed to pick two pints of raspberries Monday, as well as two pints of raspberries today. Today I had to wear a mask to go outside and pick berries because of how smoky the air is.

As much as I would have rather have stayed indoors on a day like today, when you have a garden that needs tending, you do what you need to do to be able to have fresh food to eat.

With it being summer and it being so hot, I have been trying to get as many socks worked on as possible.

It looks like we have turned the corner on the hottest part of the summer, and the long hot stretches. Don’t get me wrong, the next few weeks will still be too hot for my liking.

I am so ready for fall. The cool crisp autumn weather is so enticing. The changing color of the leaves, a beautiful sunny, 72 degree October day, with the trees all yellow, orange and red. We can’t forget about the rain, we desperately need the rain with all the wildfires burning at the moment. I am so ready for it to be cool enough again for adventures. Beings that heat and I are not a good combination, as it drains my energy, this time of year i am pretty much forced to stay indoors with the AC, and what little gardening I do, takes all my energy.

Keep Moving Forward

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It is kind of hard for me to believe that I have been blogging in some form most of my adult life. While none of my early blogs still exist, I started blogging sometime around late 2010 or early 2011. I know I was blogging at the time when I went to New York and for at least a few months leading up to that. I unfortunately don’t have those blog posts anymore as they were on a blog I deleted.

Of all my blogs that I still have and maintain, the oldest two blogs are my adventures blog and my knitting blog, which both date back to June of 2013. I had started this blog about 14 months later, in August of 2014 (August 15th to be exact). I started this blog because I wanted to keep my adventures blog strictly to my adventures blog, the style and feel of that blog is different than the style of this blog. While I do write a bit more about my adventures on this blog as well, I write more about the day to day, what’s on my mind kinda of things here, where as my adventures blog is dedicated to the actual adventures side of things. The adventures side of things I want to try to include if and when I go on bigger adventures has to where I am going, the preparation for the trip, the gear I am taking, what I pack, tips and tricks, and the adventure itself.

I wish I still had the blog posts from when I was actually in New York, and be able to look back and see how much I have changed from the 23 year old who went to New York on her own. It was one of those trips that helped shape the person I am today. It was one of the first major adult decisions I made completely on my own, and set my mind to it, and didn’t let anyone try to talk me out of it. From that I learned that I don’t need others approval to live my life, and that I can and will do what is right for me, even when others tell me not to or that I cannot do it (for whatever reason), I am not here to live my life to please others. I learned how strong of a person I am, that if I allow others to live my life for me, then I am not living at all.

I love blogging, and being able to go back over my posts and remember what I have seen and done, that I may not remember that I did.

What Goes Around Comes Around

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Today was one of those days where I have needed three cups of tea. I was up early this morning since I had stuff to take care up, and then I set up a job interview for this afternoon.

In between setting up the interview and going to the interview, I got quite a bit done around the house as well as some knitting.

I was a bit nervous going into my interview. I am not a fan of interviews. Once I got there, I chilled out a bit. I had worked at a different location of the same store last holiday season. I feel like it went well but I have to wait until Monday or Tuesday to know if I will get the job or not.

Over the past couple of years, I have definitely realized that what you put out into world will come back to you. So if you are positive, on the whole you will get positivity back.

I haven’t always been this firm in what I believe and not caring what others think. I have had my fair share of insecurities and doubts. I can’t exactly tell when when or how, but it was like a switch flipped and it stopped really mattering what others thought. I have been doing me, and doing the things that I enjoy and pursuing my own goals. If someone tells me I can’t do something, I prove them wrong. If they are shocked by my hobbies and things I enjoy, like hiking, camping, fishing, campfires, and the whole nine yards, the more I do these things, because I enjoy them in the first place. The shock value and reactions from some people make doing what I love that much more amazing.

While proving people wrong about me is fun and all, pushing boundaries in a healthy manner is also good for us as people. Trying new things helps us to grow, and learn about ourselves. In learning about ourselves, we learn what we are capable of, and what we enjoy.

At the end of the day, I want to be a better person. I am not perfect, No one is. I am an imperfect person, who has made mistakes and learned from them.

Ultimately, I am sharing my story, because there may be a young woman who comes across it, and is going through something I went through, and sees that she isn’t alone, and that little spark helps her to keep on keeping on.

Best Weekend I have had all Year!

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This weekend has been quite relaxing.

Yesterday I spent the day doing home stuff, and basically whatever I wanted to do. I washed a pair of socks and put it out to dry.

I had also rewashed a bulky shawl because it had gotten super stretched out, so I have been letting it dry and shaping it as it dries. It is still damp even though I washed it yesterday, but it is holding the shape I want it to have better.

Yesterday I also did some gardening and some cooking and baking. Last night for dinner I had cooked some quinoa, then added it to some spinach and tomatoes that I was sautéing up in some olive oil seasoned with some salt, garlic and lemon juice. It turned out super good. I also had a side of roasted rosemary garlic potatoes on the side.

I had also made a batch of cherry brownies for dessert.

I have really been enjoying a few days of knitting and Homemaking to my hearts content, and it is really making me want a place of my own again. A place that I can make my own, and have my own kitchen. I want a big garden to grow fruit and vegetables, a place to be able to make meals for a family of my own, as well as having friends over.

So yeah, I have been thinking a lot about what I want my future to look like and what I need to do to make it happen. It is not going to be easy, but making it happen will be so worth it.

I don’t need anything fancy or extravagant, I definitely prefer simple and putting the hard work in to be able to gain practical skills that I can then pass on and share.

Finding Others Who Encourage Us!

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The past few years, I have worked hard to get to a point where I genuinely don’t care what people think of me. It hasn’t been easy and has largely been a lot of work to overcome all the insecurities I had developed, as well as the doubts and lies I have been fed my whole life.

Society, the Fashion Industry, Social Media, Media, on the Whole, Peers, Friends, Family, other Men, and Women try to make us conform to what they think we should be. When we don’t conform to that image of what is beautiful, normal, or to them what we should be, and how we should behave; there is no shortage of off comments, snide remarks, backhanded jabs and straight up letting the whole world know our shortcomings according to them. They haven’t walked a mile in our shoes, and/or they are insecure about themselves, or they just want something to nitpick at, to try to make themselves feel better by dragging someone else down.

I had gotten so sick and tired of hearing about being the fat girl, and that I wouldn’t get a man unless I was skinny, or that I am not supposed to love the outdoors, hiking, camping, gardening, and doing anything less than being a proper lady.

Well, Guess What? I don’t play by their rules. I don’t care. If I am not pretty enough, that’s their problem. I’m not skinny enough? again their problem. Not into fashion enough (or at all), I don’t care. Not into makeup (like at all)? I have better things to do with my time.

For the past decade and a half, probably a bit longer, I have done my own thing. I have always been the type where if I am told I can’t do something, I am like “oh yeah, watch me”, and I go out and prove them wrong.

It seems like every so often I come across another woman who has similar views on doing what is right for each of us and being able to rise above the haters and the naysayers and living our own best life.

Life is too short to be a Negative Nelly or a Debbie Downer. It may not be easy to be a positive force in the world, in the end, I would rather work my butt off to encourage other women, young women, and girls to be able to rise above and out of the box that the world puts each of us in. We all deserve the opportunity to live our life, without having to live our life according to anyone else.