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Where My Heart is At.

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This week has been pretty busy, and I have spent a fair amount of time in the car going on adventures in the Valley, which I have been documenting and sharing with you all over the past few days.

This morning I had to run some stuff down to Polk County, for a friend of mine. This is the second time this week I have left the counties that encompass the metro area.

While I was in Polk County, I had gone back to where I had attended college. Part of me still kinda (just a little bit) misses living there, but at the same time, I have come to terms with the fact that that particular chapter of my life is over and it is time to move on and have new adventures and see where life takes me. It’s time to call someplace else home. I still love that area, and I left a piece of my heart there, and it will always have a place in my heart – being the first place I really considered home, It’s now time to find a job someplace else and a new small town call home.

The other day I had driven through Mt. Angel on my way home and had hit it at a bad time for stopping by the Catholic Church for pictures. This church is particularly pretty. I am not Catholic, but I do love the architecture of these older churches.

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I had made it a point today to stop by on my way home since I was going to be passing through the area earlier in the day. Beings there is a school across the street, that was letting out the other day when I was there, it wasn’t the best timing on my part. Beings as I was passing through Mt. Angel between Noon and 12:30 pm today, it worked out well to stop and get some pictures.

Like I mentioned earlier in this post, this week has been busy, and I have been on the go pretty much all week. Between that, being off my regular schedule and consuming more caffeine than I am used to (including two lattes and an energy drink in addition to my normal amounts of tea over the course of the week), I am exhausted.  I would not trade the activities I have been doing or the adventures I have been on this week for anything.

I have come to love small towns in the heart of the agriculture and timber areas in this part of the country. The city is a fun place to visit and go do stuff on occasion. I am more at home and at ease with a bit more elbow room, where I have the room to garden and not have other houses and neighbors right up on my space.

I have been fortunate that I have always had what I needed and some of what I have wanted. As I have gotten older, part of my disdain for the city, and city life is seeing how wasteful people are and how many people have a sense of entitlement while their neighbors and others living in the city are struggling to have the basic necessities. I know there are people in this city who work so hard, and work multiple jobs and are unable to make ends meet. Yet I see people throw out good food just because they don’t want to eat it, or it might not be their favorite thing. Food costs money, money doesn’t grow on trees. It infuriates me to see people being so wasteful. I am not exempt from this, there are times when I have been wasteful, especially when I was younger. The more I have struggled with unemployment, and making due with what little I have had, and have, has really been an eye-opener to me. This is part of why I am choosing to live a simpler life, and not spend money on things I don’t need, or will only watch, wear, or use once then move on. I have no real desire to become a true minimalist, as I do want a home of my own and be able to have more than just a tiny home, but I also don’t want much more than I really need. I don’t want a bazillion things that only have one function, or to only be able to make one thing that I rarely make. Especially when it comes to kitchen gadgets and such, what I want in my kitchen will have to have more than one function, or at least be something that I (or others in my future family) would use regularly (like a waffle iron or a coffee pot). While I would love to have a stand mixer, I don’t need all the extra add-ons that only have one function that I wouldn’t use all that often. The stand mixer in and of itself (and a few of the mixer heads/blades) would be something I would use regularly.

In many ways I am so glad I live in the 21st Century, with indoor plumbing, and modern feminine hygiene products, and so much more, but there is something to be said for the older ways of life, where kids grew up learning the value of hard work, and helping others, contributing to society, and more practical skills (like how to fix things that are broken).

 

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My Predictions for this Summer

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If this May is any indication of what this coming summer is going to be like, it is going to be a long, hot, dry summer. We have already had many 80 degree days and a couple 90 degree days and summer hasn’t even started yet. At this rate, I will have plenty of days where it will be hot enough to easily dry my handknit socks in a short amount of time. Now, I just need to work on getting more socks knit up. I have the yarn, I just need to turn the balls of yarn into wearable socks.

I have wondered if the fact that I was a winter baby has something to with the fact that I don’t tolerate the summer heat that well. It’s not that I don’t like summer, because I like the whole, it’s warm enough to sit outside on a summer evening and have a campfire thing and all the summer produce. I just can’t stand the heat. I would just as soon live at the coast or in SE Alaska. Autumn is my favorite season, as I love the changing colors and the fact that the temperatures are cooling off. I love the sights and smells. Autumn is when there are pumpkin patches, and apple harvest season and the leaves are changing colors, and it’s time to start pulling out the jackets and cooler weather clothes.

While I am hoping to get as many pairs of socks done as I can this summer, I am also hoping to be able to read through the Outlander series. I have read the first two books, but I had gotten away from reading for a bit so I am going back and rereading these two books before I move on to the third.  There are eight books that are published, and a ninth that is expected to be published. I have the eight that are published, and I have plenty to read in the meantime until the ninth comes out. I also have the Game of Thrones books to read, well at least the books that are published anyway. I also have several other books that I have sitting waiting to be read. I haven’t watched any of the Game of Thrones seasons on TV, I have seen the first season of Outlander. I prefer reading the books before watching the TV Shows / Movies that they are based on. There are five Game of Thrones books out, with two more (at least) expected. I have the five that are published.

While I enjoy watching TV Shows, Youtube videos and documentaries while I work on my various knitting projects, I love reading books. I really didn’t like reading while I was in Elementary School. Once I got to Middle School (grades 6 – 9), it was like a switch flipped and I couldn’t stop reading. In High School, I was bored with most of my English classes, as I found that most of the books that we were forced to read to be boring. It wasn’t that I didn’t like reading, I just didn’t like the required reading material. During my time attending University, I had started out as an Early Childhood / Elementary Education major (yeah, that lasted all of five terms), then I switched my major to Social Science with a minor in Literature. I loved minoring in Literature. There were terms that were tough to get through all the books, in addition to my other course loads, and there was at least one term, by about midterms that I was so far behind in the readings, by the end of the term I was about where we were at midterms, and there was one book I didn’t even start. I still have most of my books from my upper-division literature classes packed away in my book box. I look forward to the day when I can have a wall of bookshelves and have all my books out and be able to read any of the books I own without most of them being packed away in boxes.

There is nothing like curling up on a cold, rainy day with a nice hot cup of tea and a good book and getting lost in the story. There have been nights where I have stayed up past 4 am in the morning, reading a book cover to cover. There was one term while I was in College, that once the term had ended, I had started a book the evening after my last final and I finished reading the book as the sun was coming up the next morning before going to bed after the sun was coming up.

I am not quite the book – nerd that a couple of my cousins are, but that doesn’t mean I love reading any less.

 

Considering Going Back to School

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Pretty much since the year after I graduated with my Bachelor’s Degree, I have toyed with the idea of going back to school and getting a second Bachelors Degree and then potentially pursuing a Master’s Degree.

Over the past almost 7 years that I have been considering going back to school, I have debated on what I would study, and where I would go.  I have a pretty good idea of what I would study, and the career outcome of what I want to do after I go back, and the whole reason to go back to school, I have narrowed it down from three options I have considered. I have also looked into projected industry growth over the next decade, and the path I am leaning toward has a higher than average projected industry growth, which is promising.

The School I want to go to, at least to get my Post – Bacc degree (second bachelors), would allow me to live in a state I have been dreaming to live in for years, and even if I moved elsewhere after I finished my degree(s) should I be able to stay at said school for my masters as well, I would get to live in said state for a good 4 to 5 years. That would be a dream come true in and of itself.

If things were to work out, I am still a little over a year away from starting school. It will take hard work and dedication to even get there in the first place and have everything fall into place that I need to fall into place, and then even harder work put in while I am there to make it happen.

I know this is a bit vague, and I am purposefully not saying what I plan to major in or the school I want to attend for privacy reasons, and should it not be the right course to pursue, and not work out, then the fact that going back to school is all anyone needs to know.

I feel like my 20’s were a time of self discovery, and figuring out who I am, and the path I am supposed to take. I have been able to do a lot of amazing things in my 20’s, and I have learned a lot about life and who I am, the things that I enjoy doing and that making me happy, as well as things that fulfill me and give me a sense of purpose. Due to the fact that I didn’t really have an idea of what I wanted to do career wise after college, and with the social science field being so broad and without a specific career outcome, I feel like I spent part of my 20’s being a bystander and inactive participant in my life and watched it go by, without being able to control much. I have felt lost, empty and confused at times and like the world was just passing me by.

If all goes according to plan and works out, this change will allow me to have a definite plan career wise and have an end game goal so that I know what I am working toward.

Part of why I had started my blogs in the first place, is because if I could help even one other young woman to see her full potential and set challenging yet attainable goals for herself and work hard to achieve it, and not listen to the haters and those whose goal is to distract us from what we are able to do, then I will have been successful at one of my goals.

I have had plenty of people tell me that I can’t do something for whatever their reason, but I am the kind of person that when someone tells me I can’t do something or that I shouldn’t do something, (highly dangerous to myself/others and illegal / immoral things aside), I make it my mission to do what I am told I cannot do, and prove people wrong about me. They aren’t living my life and they haven’t walked a mile in my shoes, so who are they to tell me I can’t do something and judge me for living my life the way I believe and know is right for me.

I am taking back my life, I know that going back to school, especially after being out for 8 years now (and likely 9 by the time I start school again), is going to be hard. I am willing to put in the hard work, and get the help I need while I am there, and take advantage of office hours, and ask a ton of questions.

What I am working toward has been on my heart for a few years now, roughly two or three as specific as it is, closer to six in the broader scope of the goal.

I still intend to keep up my blogs as much as I can, and share my experience of going back to University and pursing a second bachelors and then a masters, in my 30’s.

Knowledge is power, and education is so important. I am really beginning to see how important having and education is, whether that is in the traditional sense of post secondary education (here in the US we call it High School, other countries call it something different), or learning a trade after completing high school.

One day if I ever do have children, I want to teach them about how important their education is. I do realize and know that the statistics show that children whose parents have a higher education tend to also go on to have a higher education.

In my own life I have seen how important it is for a woman to be able to navigate and conduct herself in the business world. Even if she is able to and wants to be a stay at home wife and mother, she should also have skills that are useful in the outside world. What if her husband gets sick and passes away, or is seriously injured, or if he takes off, then what? In this day and age she needs to know how to build a resume, look for a job, go on interviews and work, in order to support herself and her family. Especially in urban life, needing to have two incomes is pretty much a necessity.

I am trying to not get my hopes up yet, as its still in its early stages, but should it all work out, I also look forward to the adventures I will be able to go on because of the change and move.

Cabin Fever; The saga continues

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2018 has been a rough one so far for illness. I am sick for the third time this year and we are really only 2 months into the year.

All I want is to be healthy again and some half way decent weather so I can go hiking again.

The conditioning cream and the insoles I bought for my hiking boots came today, so I was able to condition my new hiking boots this afternoon, since they are full grain leather. I definitely want to protect them and have them last as long as possible.

Even though I am sick, today has been productive. I got some laundry done, and got my boots conditioned. I have gotten several blog posts written on a couple of my blogs, including this post. I have also been looking for a job.

Today has already been a two cup of tea day, and is about to be a three cup of tea day.

I will be giving essential oils a try here in the near future, to see if they help me stay healthy, help with my allergies and with stress. I am going to be trying a few blends.

I have too much going on this month to be sick again. I have a ladies retreat in a couple weeks that I will be attending as well as a concert the weekend after and I want to fit in at least a couple hikes before Oregon Spring Break.

I have also been sorting through some stuff, and seeing what I can get rid of, especially of things that don’t fit right or don’t fit period and I won’t wear. I am also trying to simplify what I have, with the exception of a few decorative things (even that I am trying to keep simple), I am trying to not have excessive amounts of material things that I don’t really need. If it is something functional, that I am currently using (or will for sure use when I move out on my own again) I am keeping it for now, but other things are just taking up needless space.

While I have no burning desire to living in a tiny home, I would rather live on acreage, with a modest farmhouse, bungalow or cottage, than a big house in the city. The one thing I would like though is a kitchen with decent counter space so I can have room to cook and bake, as well as a table that can seat several people, for family gatherings and such.

Combatting Cabin Fever

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This past week we have been seeing snow off and on pretty much every day, and it has been sticking the past couple of days. This phenomenon is weird for Portland this time of year. As anyone knows Portland is already not very well equipped to handle snow and ice, even when it is most likely to occur. Whenever we get snow that sticks to the pavement, schools close, and the city shuts down. Fortunately it hasn’t been as bad as last winter and the snow has been melting off the pavement during the day.

Anytime we get snow in the city, I start getting cabin fever. As much as I hate the summer heat, I just don’t like being forced to stay home. I like having the option of going somewhere.

Beings that the roads were fine by midday today, I left and went and ran a couple much needed errands. I needed to get some new hiking boots. While hiking boots may not seem like much of a need to a lot of people, they are if you are me.

I ran up to the Danner Factory Outlet store up on NE Airport Way here in Portland.

I got myself a pair of the Mountain Light Cascade Boots, which are the same style that Reese Witherspoon wore in the movie “Wild”.

I had also gone to the mall, and had gone to REI and Eddie Bauer.

I have to say that REI is definitely one of my favorite stores to spend time at. While I am not a huge fan of shopping, I can lose track of time at REI

At REI I had picked up a couple pairs of hiking socks as well as a couple other items, because I would rather wear a pair of socks I am not as invested in to break in my new boots, than wearing the nice ones that I have made myself.

This spring – autumn I definitely need to get some more hiking in and under my belt. Not only do I want to break in my new boots, but I also really miss hiking and being outside.

The last thing I really need / want to get before I go back out hiking is some moleskin, as I have areas that are prone to blisters, and with new boots I want to reduce me chance of blisters.

The Seasons of Change

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Not only did winter start Thursday morning, but life is changing.

The past few months I have been working a seasonal job in retail. The season for where I work is wrapping up this weekend, and yesterday morning was my last shift. I am not really sad or shocked, I knew it was coming from the time I started.

My 20’s are also quickly coming to and end. I only have a little over a week left of being in my 20’s.

So there is a lot of changes that have been happening, and more coming up.

Looking over back over the past year, and the past decade, I have definitely learned a lot about life, who I am, and what I am supposed to be doing with my life. I have definitely learned a lot about what I am capable of achieving and that failing is a part of life. Often times you just have to pick yourself back up and try something else. At some point (or several) along the way you will figure out your strengths and what you are passionate about. For me personally, I love knitting, I love homemaking (which includes cooking and baking from scratch as well as canning), I love being outdoors and close to nature. I like supporting and buying local, and knowing where my food and clothing comes from. I want to get back to the land, and raise a lot of my own food, and reduce my dependence on the supermarkets, and keep that to only what I can’t feasibly do for myself.

Living a more self sustainable, self reliant (i.e. Homesteader) kind of life is definitely the dream / goal I am working toward.

Autumn in Portland

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I had this morning off, so I could sleep at night like a normal person. Beings that I woke up at a normal time for me, I had the energy to go for a walk this afternoon.

Looking for a full time job here that is a good fit for me, has been a challenge. It has made me really think about what I am good at, what I am passionate about, and how I want to spend my career.

I have spent the better part of 7.5 years not using my degree, bouncing around doing different jobs in different industries, yet have had one that was close to being a good fit.

I am definitely wanting to spend more time doing Homemaking stuff and outdoorsy stuff. What would be even better would be modern Homesteading (aka living on a farm, that has electricity and at least a septic system), with a great view. Then I could do the Homemaking and outdoorsy stuff and not have to choose.

Still Awake at 2 AM

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I have had several nights lately where I have been up until 2 am or later working on various projects. 

I am definitely a night owl, that is for sure, especially in the summer, when it is too hot to fall asleep any earlier. 

This time I have been up late working on some YouTube videos for my adventures channel. I had come up with a few ideas that I got started on earlier in the the day, and I am just now waiting on the past one to process on YouTube so it will be scheduled for another day. I got 8 videos edited, processed in the editing program, uploaded, scheduled and processed on YouTube. I am definitely hoping to be able to start creating more original content for all my YouTube channels here in the not too distant future as well as have new content for my blogs. I have no real desire to get big on YouTube, and if I were I would want it to be on my Homemaking (and hopefully at some point homesteading) channel as well as my knitting channel. My adventure channel and life at full speed channel (which I just started today), are really for me, 

I started the life at full speed YouTube channel just so I would have it claimed to match my blog and Facebook page, should I decide I want to make videos about life that are not so in depth and specific to Adventures, Homemaking & homesteading, and Knitting. I know it seems like a lot to have 4 YouTube channels on top of 5 blogs. I know it seems like a lot, and it is. I may not do a whole lot with the YouTube channels, but I want that option available once I have my own place again, and am able to actually have the space to film videos, and be organized about it. I love my blogs and won’t give them up, as I am definitely more of a writer than a speaker. 

Moving on from Disappointment 

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I had an interview this past Tuesday, for a job that I probably would have enjoyed. I found out today that I didn’t get the job. I am trying to keep my mind off it and focus on finding a job and where I need to be. 

As much as I love this part of the country, the fact that I have struggled to find a long term job, for the past 7.5 years. So, if I can find a job elsewhere I would totally move. Portland is a tough place to find a decent job if you aren’t in IT, Engineering or Healthcare fields. 

Besides that, I went out and about for a bit this afternoon since I was tired of being stuck inside. I just drove around the city a bit. If I could find a job here, I would totally stay. At the same time, if I could find a job else where I would move, and enjoy the adventure.

After I got home, I made a batch of Raspberry & Cherry freezer jam. It turned out amazing. 


I also spent some time knitting today, working to get the pair of socks I am working on done. I am still on the first sock though. 

Ideally I would love to live either at the coast or back in the mid valley, either in a small town or near the small towns, and be within a couple hours of Portland. I am definitely more of a small town / country girl rather than a city girl. Having spent most of my life in the city, I am used to it, I would just rather be living in the country. 

Breaking out of the Insulated Bubble

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I know I have talked about wanting to move away from the City, and if I have the opportunity I would. At the same time, in exploring other parts of Portland I have found other neighborhoods that feel like home. The neighborhoods that feel more like home for me are the neighborhoods that were traditionally working class family neighborhoods from the mid 1940’s –  1960’s. I know I had a very insulated childhood in a nice neighborhood, and lived a different kind of life than I prefer to live now. As a kid I was very mainstream yet insulted life. Choosing to live more a life that is based on eating more naturally, knowing where my food comes from, how it was raised / grown, and all in all a more Portland lifestyle has been something that didn’t happen over night. The seeds were planted and started taking root while I was in college. It took off after I developed food intolerances. It doesn’t help that our food has been changed and altered so much since my grandparents were raising my parents. 

Looking back at the past few years I can see how much I have changed, and I finally feel like I can see everything coming together and the direction I am supposed to be going. 

I had an interview today for a job I feel would be a good fit for me, and something I would excel at. I have to wait a few days to find out if I get it out not.