Tag: purpose

Breaking out of the Insulated Bubble

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I know I have talked about wanting to move away from the City, and if I have the opportunity I would. At the same time, in exploring other parts of Portland I have found other neighborhoods that feel like home. The neighborhoods that feel more like home for me are the neighborhoods that were traditionally working class family neighborhoods from the mid 1940’s –  1960’s. I know I had a very insulated childhood in a nice neighborhood, and lived a different kind of life than I prefer to live now. As a kid I was very mainstream yet insulted life. Choosing to live more a life that is based on eating more naturally, knowing where my food comes from, how it was raised / grown, and all in all a more Portland lifestyle has been something that didn’t happen over night. The seeds were planted and started taking root while I was in college. It took off after I developed food intolerances. It doesn’t help that our food has been changed and altered so much since my grandparents were raising my parents. 

Looking back at the past few years I can see how much I have changed, and I finally feel like I can see everything coming together and the direction I am supposed to be going. 

I had an interview today for a job I feel would be a good fit for me, and something I would excel at. I have to wait a few days to find out if I get it out not. 


Living a Simpler Life

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Over the course of the past few years I have been working to figure out what I am supposed to be doing with my life. As time has gone by, I have been finding myself spending more and more time outdoors, going on adventures and hiking. Since I graduated from college, I have developed food intolerances and sensitivities, which has made food a big deal for me. Knowing where my food comes from and sticking to whole grains, lean proteins, fresh & local fruits and vegetables is my goal.

What I have come to the conclusion is that the city life is not for me, and I want to live a simpler life. A life that is less about having a lot of material goods and more about actually living life and living more off the land, without excess. 

I don’t want to live completely off grid, but I want to take advantage of a simpler life, where I make as much of my own stuff as possible. I also want to take advantage of alternative energy sources such as Solar, Wind and hydro power that are renewable. 

I have also been trying to use more natural products, as I have found that skin care, laundry care, dish care products are so full of synthetic chemicals that cause adverse reactions and have been linked to diseases that were nowhere near as prevalent 65+ years ago. 

To some extent I am going more natural, there are still areas of current mainstream society that I don’t want to go without. I know I would miss having a cellphone, internet, grocery stores (for food that I am unable to grow or raise myself), and my current wardrobe. 

I have loved being out in the woods, campfires, canning fruit, making jam, going to the farms or farm store / co op and buy what I can’t grow or is not time / cost effective to grow small scale from local farms and orchards where they grow what I want on a larger scale. I love supporting local. 

From the time I was young, I have been fascinated by Laura Ingalls Wilder’s life as a girl and young woman growing up and living on the frontier and being a pioneer. 

The college I had attended was in a small town in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of farm, wine and hops country. While I know there are towns even smaller out there, and even further away from the city. This experience, combined with the fact that I chose to spend as much time there as possible. I didn’t want to be one of those college kids who goes away to a school within 100 miles of my parents house, just to go “home” every weekend. I wanted to integrate myself into life there. I chose to stay there most weekends and most summers. It totally became my home. 

Having grown up in the city, and having had to come back after university, I have seen how expensive it really is to live in an urban area, especially on the west coast. It is difficult for a young professional, like myself to find a job I can support myself on and maintain the city lifestyle. 

My dream job is living in a small town to a small city (like under 70k people max), and blogging about living a simpler life, more off the land, where I can spend more time outside when the weather permits. I also want to blog about the homemaking end of things, as well as what I knit up for myself. 

Finally Piecing it Together

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In many ways I feel like my life has been standing still, yet so much has been changing. For so long I wondered what my purpose and calling were. In the past year, I finally feel like I have been given a call and purpose. 

I graduated from college with no real plan and no job lined up, and it was scary, a little over a year after I graduated from college I went to New York, on my own, and it was definitely was one of those growing experiences. It really helped me to grow, and that when I know something is right for me, I can’t let fear hold me back. If I had let fear get the best of me, I know I wouldn’t be who I am today. 

I have known for years I am not a city girl. I may know how to navigate the city, but the fast paced lifestyle isn’t for me.

Over the course of the past couple of years, I have begun to see that who I am, the outdoorsy girl who loves the ocean, hiking and pretty much everything the Pacific Northwest has to offer, is OK, and who I am supposed to be. This part of the country is my home and where my roots are. While I love exploring and seeing new places, there is nothing like getting back home. 

Where my Life is Headed

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This year has been a year full of growing and changing for me, and it has been for the better. 

I know I have talked about it in previous posts, that I have been digging deep, and figuring out who I am, my purpose and my contribution in life. I know that as I get older and hopefully wiser that I will change. I am not the same as I was at 18 nor will I be the same person I am now, when I am 38. Life is about changes, and adapting when you need to as well as holding on to what you believe in. If you had asked me 5 years ago if I were going to be living in the same city I grew up in and finding my current purpose here, I would have told you that you were crazy. 

Growing up I was the fat kid, and got bullied a lot, so I grew up being insecure and self conscious. These have plagued me into adulthood. They have also contributed to the eating disorders and eating disorder tendencies I have dealt with at different points over the years. Many times I just wanted to be invisible and disappear. 

In the past 5 years my best friend became my best friend. I also developed food intolerances, and have continued to struggle with my weight. In the past 6 months I have found the company ItWorks, and met my Upline (we had a mutual friend), who has become another good friend. 

These last few months I have been changing for the better. I have definitely found my voice. Now I am working toward the living out my purpose, and being the best version of myself that I can be. 

Finding my purposeĀ 

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I don’t often talk about my past and things I have been through that are tough issues, like bullying, my weight, eating disorders, cutting, depression, coping with the loss of a grandparent on my own. Those have always been subjects that I have been trained to believe are taboo and you don’t discuss, period. Because of that, myself and many other kids and young adult struggle with, and some tragically succumb to their struggles. 

Before this post takes a much darker turn than I had anticipated, there are things I have been through that only a handful of people know the full extent of, and they have seen me trough that and seen me come out the other side, for the better. 

For anyone out there reading this, and going through hard issues, while I don’t personally understand what you are going through, there is hope and help out there, and others who have gone through similar things. 

Why I am choosing to write this post is because in the past couple of weeks I have decided to start making some life changes, for the better. I started using some of the ItWorks products to help me get my weight under control as I have allowed it to get out of control again. Why now you may ask? Why not? I have never been much of an athlete, but there are physical activities that I enjoy and shedding some weight would help me to be more successful at those activities as well as enjoy them more. I also have been feeling the effects of an old injury that never healed properly and losing weight would help ease the pressure on those points. 

Many of you who have followed me for any length of time know how much I love being outside and away from the big city. Yesterday while I was out on a drive along a two lane highway in the middle of nowhere I realized that I am in the city for a reason, and I have a purpose here. The whole “growing where you are planted” kind of came back to bite me so to speak. That definitely doesn’t mean that the adventures or love of small towns will stop, but rather an understanding and appreciation for the opportunities I have had. I am also not saying that I may never get to move back to a small town, but for this season of my life I am needed here. I don’t fully understand my purpose or my mission but I know enough to see that everything that has happened in my life has happened for a reason and I am who I am for a reason. 

I have been given a great group of friends who love and support me for who I am, I find ways to do what I love often.